Please give me some time to… Cry to myself…
*sob*
*sniff*
*sob*
*breathes in* Aaah… One thing I really don’t like is when my mouse’s battery is flat. Especially in the midst of the game. It happened once, but battery was stocked up, so a quick change was all I needed. But now… I haven’t stock my batteries…
*sob*
Anyway… Since I can’t play games for the moment.. Might as well blog, right?
But what should I blog…
*thinks*
*thinks*
Hmm… Maybe something about myself…
Well… This comes from logical thinking, and I’m not either degrading myself or praising myself or whatever. One thing about me… I’d always think that people hate me for something, but I wouldn’t know what. For example, I replied to a friend’s tweet, and I would wait for a reply if my reply is something the person should reply. But if the person doesn’t reply, then I would start thinking I’ve either pissed off the person on the spot (thru my tweet), or the person just doesn’t like me since the land before time.
I would always think that way, thinking I might have hurt the person, or I’m just unlikable and stuffs like that. If the person isn’t someone I’m close with, the thinking would just go away soon enough. But if it were someone close to me, it would etched in my mind for like, days until the person replies or when I asked the person why they didn’t reply.
I do try to think positively, for example maybe their cellphone battery’s flat, or is on silent and stuffs. But I just don’t like to comfort myself and think everyone’s happy with me all the time. That’s just me I guess. I dunno whether that’s bad or good, but… Hmm….
But in conclusion… I’m just afraid to lose everyone I’m close with… How it became different when someone just disappear, even for a short time…
Alright. I think I’ve opened too much. Haha. I’ll open up again next year alright~! Hahahaha!! (I’m smiling to myself. Weird.)
